Nothing much has changed in him, only everything 
I am twenty-three again, only wiser
I didn’t know it then, but he was everything

My son, my pulse, my heart, my adviser 
Nothing much has changed in him, only everything 
I am twenty-three again, only wiser
I didn’t know it then, but he was everything

My son, my pulse, my heart, my adviser 
I was sure that, although I had been dragged kicking and screaming into the 21st Century by my son Bronson, I did not have a phobia, condition, syndrome or wasn’t “damaged” like almost every person I know.

I really didn’t think that I was part of the new millennium because I was too old and not in-touch enough to fit in with the very folk I consider to be my friends. I didn’t have a condition. I was partly wrong.
I am the last of me. The way I speak, act and react are not found again in nature. The tilt of my head may reveal itself in my son as something noticed out of the corner of someone’s eye, but it will be the merest ghost of me.

My unique reaction or my quickness of humor may be found in a nano-second during a conversation with my son, but it will be only the mist of me. We are all on a slide to extinction.
Last night was our Holiday Party; the gift which Bronson, Sam and I gave to each other.

The thing about the party is that it was a really great opportunity to meet the people who are so much a part of our individual lives. I will not go on and on about how great the evening was…well,maybe just a tad.
When I woke this morning 
I was not really sure
What I would be doing
or what I would endure
There was much to do
And three of us to do it
All I knew for real, for sure
Was that we three would get through it.
The house was cleaned
We found the decorations
We’d planned the food and timeline
Stocked some fab libations
Beneath all this, life was real
It had the warmth
And had the feel
We talked and laughed
And even cried
We came closer together 
And hadn’t even tried
We changed our gear
To forge ahead
Any negative became
Positive instead
It’s going to be
a different year
We have a grip
The road is clear
I’ll share in them
They’ll share in me 
What a better year
It’s bound to be
We had the love
All along
But, now together,
It’s three-times strong
Another thing that I have to say 
Is life is better than even yesterday
Nothing to fear
No great confusion
Abundance is ours
In splendid profusion
Now I know
We are three to do it
And whatever comes
We three will get through it.
Happy Chanuka, 
Happy Kwanza,
Merry Christmas,
It’s such a shonda
That every family everywhere
Cannot know the joy that we share
Every father, mother, sister, brother
Son and daughter and any other
Hug the ones so close to you 
That’s the important thing to do
Before you know it,
And in not very long,
You’ll find it impossible
To not get along.
You’ll discover the hearts
That beat like yours
The tears are the same
The games and the chores
With that said
All that’s left to say 
Is make each day
Your Holiday.
I send my love to each and every person I know and don’t know…
and that’s not just some more…tales from a broad!
XOXO CVD
Don’t Let You Cowboys Grow Up to Be Babies!
The L.A. Rodeo in Thousand Oaks last weekend was worth every drop of sweat on my sons’ brows. My son Bronson reminds me a lot of my late-brother, Van. They neither liked to participate in athletic team sports. But…give them a chance to shine in a one-cowboy venue or on a motorcycle…well…that was different. Bronson and Sam were outstanding in the Chute-dogging event and even in the Goat Dressing event. Along with their mentor, Sonny Koerner, they were my favorite Cowboys.
“He’s My Lover” from the film Framed, in which she starred with Joe Don Baker
“I’ll Never Make it Easy”, also from Framed
These clips will also be available on the CLIPS page.
Last night I met an incredible woman named Elke. Bronson, Sam and I went to a “Silence the Hate” event organized to heighten people’s awareness to the countless people who have been hurt and even killed because of their sexual orientation.
Bronson simply said, “Mom, this is Elke. Her son, Sean, was killed 8 months ago in a hate crime.” I looked at Elke, hugged her and broke into tears. We sobbed in each other’s arms. The depth to which I felt that pain is something that I will never forget. Nor do I want to. The event was to benefit The Gay American Heroes Foundation.
I remember a story about a gift. There was an Indian who lost his horse and then was supplied a horse by a fellow Indian. When the first man found his original horse, he then got on the horse loaned to him and rode the 100 miles to the man who loaned him the horse. When he arrived to the camp of the man who first loaned him the horse, he got down from the horse and then handed the reigns to the man. The man who had loaned him the horse in the first place said, “Why didn’t you bring a second horse with you?”
A bright spot in my morningShe fills a room with her tranquilityShe fills a screen with her abilityWarms a heart with her affabilityLights our eyes with her possibilityYet leaves us with the futilityof trying to hold her longer than she can stay. 220,000 waiting for a Visa… 66,000 receiving a Visa.Sometimes you win and sometimes your luck is simply postponed. We are all so fortunate to have had you in our day-to-day. Do not stay away forever. I will miss you and your joy, Yulun.Ever,Conny